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My boyfriend and I are both 24 years old, we've been together for 9 months now and I can count the times we've kissed on my 2 hands. Not counting the peck I get in the morning when he leaves for work. When the issue is brought up he blames me, saying I'm not affectionate, and I act like I want to be anywhere but there with him. I'm DYING to touch him, hug him, cuddle, kiss him, have sex, but I do admit I'm VERY VERY shy and I cant DO anything. I'm afraid to touch him unless he touches me first or TELLS me hey rub my back or whatever. Is it my fault? I mean the only time he touches me is when hes ready to have sex.and even then its just that, sex. No touching, no foreplay, just pulls down my pants, hes ready, we do it, and its done. Then everything goes back to normal as if nothing happened. What the crap? Ya know.whats going on here. I just cant imagine this being ALL me ya know.