Defeatist attitude again Ren. You are not meant to be lonely and alone. This is your first real dating candidate in a while. The fact that it might not work out is ONLY indicative of you don't always find your soulmate this quickly.
There is a positive to this. He afforded you the oppty to get out there and mingle. If you TRULY wanted platonic friendship none of this stuff that is occurring would bother you so much. Be honest with yourself the most....you wanted more and wanted this to be more and that is why you are upset.
If you truly looked at this as platonic friendship it would still be okay and you two would just hang out when the oppty was right for you both. You have to realize you do have a lot of expectations, and they are because you were looking for this to be more. There is nothing wrong with that but i fear you are not being honest wtih yourself about your expectations out of this. truth is there were a lot of redflags, and you knew that. But you hoped it would pan out. Again, nothing wrong with that. We have all been there.
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